I am working on organizing the baby room today. You know, a year ago I would have never thought I would be doing this all over again. Last year in July was my baby shower, now I had another one less than a year later only changing from pink to blue. It makes me sad and thankful at the same time. I am sad that I didn't get the chance with Abigail to use any of the pretty things she got from the shower. I am sad that Caleb and I didn't really even get the opportunity to spend any time with her. Sure we had the day and a half at the hospital, but that is just not the same as bringing your baby home and enjoying them. One thing that I am really looking forward to, that most people will say is nuts, but I am looking forward to hearing Donovan cry. That is one sound that I didn't get to hear from Abigail. I cannot wait to hear his cry though, I am sure it will only be the first couple of hours that I really treasure it, but I also know that there will be those moments when I miss Abby terribly, and then I hear Donovan cry and I know I will be thankful to hear it! I am thankful that God has given us another opportunity to have a baby so soon. A lot of people think it was to soon, and in some aspects I can agree. There have been times through this pregnancy that I have mourned Abby, and I am sure that will continue even after Abby is born, but Caleb and I decided that we can't stop living our lives. We know that Abby is in a very safe place and she is loved. All of this to say, that no matter what happens, I hope to remain thankful. Thankful for Abby and everything she gave to Caleb and I. We grew together more with her than we would have without. We grew up tremendously in the couple months after her death. We made a lot of changes in our lives and in the relationships of those we love, but we probably wouldn't have made those changes were it not for her. I want to remain thankful for God who is giving us another baby so soon. I especially want to remain thankful for my husband who loves me and both of our children tremendously and only wants the best for us.

If you all think about it, pray for us over the next week or so. We are going in Monday the 29th for some big testing and if everything comes back ok, they will induce that day. I am getting a little nervous and a lot excited at the same time. But also, I have been having off and on noticeable contractions for the past week, I am not sure what is going on with those, but just pray for us at this time. Thanks!!!