You know, I never realized quite how "scared" I would be at the end of this pregnancy. I thought I would be able to breeze through it without a problem, but I am so scared at this point in time that it is beginning to consume my thoughts. I am attempting to keep busy, but really there is only so much that I can do before I run out of things to do! I already broke the mower on accident, so I have to wait for Caleb to fix that. I have cleaned the house, and am working on laundry. Tomorrow there is a baby shower from some ladies at church, so that will give me something to do and then organizing the clothes and stuff afterwards.

My main fear is that I am going to feel that same movement that I felt with Abby right before she died. I really don't like to think about it because that was a horrible feeling now that I realize what it was. It is not even the fact that I am tired of being pregnant. While that is true, I could make it until the end if it was just that, but more it is that I am scared that something will happen to this little guy inside of me. There are times where I am in tears because I just want him to be safe. It is times like that when all I can do is pray...pray for Donovan, and pray for strength for me.

So in light of all this, I ask you all to pray too-the end is coming near, sometimes I wish it was next week, but I want him to be healthy too-I don't want him to come too early. We do have a couple of decisions to make with the docs and I ask you to pray for wisdom and peace for us. Caleb too-I know this is hard on him as well. He asks me every day how Donovan's movements are and things like that, so don't forget him! Thank you all so much!