Thoughts...

As I sit here in my totally comfortable living room, I think about many different things. A few of those thoughts include:
1) When will Caleb and I attempt to have another baby? I would try tomorrow if I thought it was the right time, but I am just not sure. I believe that it won't be too much longer though. I cannot wait! They say that when you have a baby that your mothering instincts kick in, well I had a baby and I think those instincts are definitely here because I found myself in wal-mart the other day telling a little boy in the toy department to be careful because the toys were about to fall on him and his mother just stared at me. Oh well-maybe I saved him from a headache. And then there is my dog who is basically my child only he has four legs and a lot more fur! Caleb tells me that I baby him to much, I just tell him that we better have a real baby soon then!

2) I am totally excited for the new Bible study I am going to this evening. We are going to study the book of Hebrews. You have no idea how much I need this! I need the fellowship of other people besides Caleb's family. I cannot wait until 8:00 tonight!!!

3) I think about how beautiful it is outside and how much stuff needs to get done. I have the house to tidy, dinner to make and the yard to mow, but Caleb gets off early tonight, so maybe I will let him mow the yard!

4) I think about whether the mystery shop program I just signed up for is really legitimate. If it is, I think it will be a lot of fun. Just basic things, like restaurants and different shops, but it should be exciting! We will see how that turns out.

You know, there are so many other thoughts inside of my head that I don't know how to get out. Part of me says to keep them inside because I don't want to hurt anyone, and part of me says to let them out because I will feel better. They are not bad thoughts-more about Abby and her death and just the feelings that I have that other people can't feel-not even Caleb. I hurt sometimes because I just want her back so bad, but I know that can't happen.

Anyway, I don't mean to depress anyone-these are just some of my random thoughts!