Well, today I feel the need to vent a little bit. I get so frustrated when people seem to think only about themselves and how to make things work out for them and make life better for them without thinking how it makes everyone else feel. For instance, when someone thinks only about how to make everything better for them, it makes me upset because depending on the situation, it makes Caleb extremely upset. He goes from sad to mad to just frustrated because he can't make everyone happy. Why can't he make everyone happy? Because the people he is trying to make happy want two different things. Unfortunately, I can't sacrifice what I believe to make people happy and Caleb can't either.
I just get terribly frustrated with people. I suppose I shouldn't get so upset, but sometimes I just can't help it. I would really like to tell people what I think, but I know that would make them upset. I know that in the grand scheme of things, the relationship that I have with people doesn't matter. I know all that matters is serving God and living for Him. I just wish other people would realize that and that even though having those relationships is good, at some point you have to let them go.
Not only does this venting have a reason, it does not have anything to do with the fact that Abby's anniversary is tomorrow. So, with this "reason" on top of the anniversary date, it makes me emotionally upset and frustrated and mad. Yeah, I said it, I am mad. I am mad that this happened, I am mad that they don't think about Caleb and I, I am mad that they don't think that they can talk to me about problems they may have. I am mad that they put all of this on Caleb and because they ONLY talk when he is there he feels like it is all depending on him. They don't talk to anyone else that is affected about it either, so of course, with Caleb's nature the way it is, he feels like he is the one that has to solve the problem. At this point, I just want to move away and never come back.
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