Some more ramblings...

It's finally Friday!!! This week has been absolutely CRAZY, but it has been a good week too. It seems like something has gone on every night this week, except for tonight, which I have reserved for Caleb and I time to sit and watch TV. We like to watch Ghost Whisperer, except I think it is going to be a bit more creepy than usual since it is halloween night tonight. While you won't find me verbally supporting halloween, I do think it is really cute to see the kids in their costumes. I doubt we will get any trick or treaters tonight because our porch light is broken, but I have candy just in case. I think my neices and nephew might come and I also think Caleb's neices might stop by.

Today I absolutely had to clean the house...it was a mess after being gone most of the week. You know a clean house makes me very thankful for my mom. She always keeps her house spotless and I try to do the same, it just makes me so much more relaxed knowing that my house is clean and picked up in. I also just made a meatloaf. This is only my third time making meatloaf, and somewhere along the way I had lost my recipe for it, so I pretty much did it from memory today. Hopefully it will taste good!

At Bible study last night, we continued our study of Hebrews. That book is quite interesting if you learn some of the back traditions of like the old covenant and stuff. It is just so incredible to think that Christ Himself was the perfect, ,ultimate sacrifice for our sins and that we can go directly to Him in prayer and not have to make sacrifices to a priest or anything like that. Anyway, we were on chapter 7 and 8 of Hebrews and one of the main things I got out of it is that prayer is so important. But we are not to take prayer lightly. Sure we can go to God boldly, but we also need to have a sincere reverance. I mean we are talking to the God of the Universe. Wow. It is just a thought about how important, but also how powerful prayer is.

This weekend will be busy so hopefully I will get back to you early next week!

Another day, another time...

I have had a wonderful day so far today! I got to spend the morning/early afternoon shopping with my mom for my birthday. I think that is the funnest present to get, where we both go shopping together and I get to pick a couple things that I need/want. Then we have a good lunch together and enjoyed a wonderful Starbucks beverage!

So far I have had a wonderful week. The weather is very fall-like and I love it! Caleb had yesterday off, so we spent part of the day at his Grandparents' house in Rockville and the evening at home playing Dutch Blitz by the fireplace. That is my idea of a great evening! I tell you what, I am just so thankful to have such a wonderful husband. We have been through a lot in the past year, but through it all, we have only grown closer together! God is good.

Another day...

It's another day....another beautiful fall day anyway! The week has been good so far. It is hard to believe that Caleb and I have been married for almost a year! I am going to go back and hit the highlights of the year for you:
Nov. 2 2007-Our Wedding!
Nov. 3-8 2007-Honeymoon in Tennessee
Dec. 6 2007-We find out we are pregnant!!!!
Jan. 10 2008-First OB Doctor Appt.
Feb. 2-Our best friends' wedding-Michelle Manago and Kyle Raley
April 9-We are having a girl!!!
July 26-Caleb's birthday
Aug. 4-Abigail Renee Lynd is born-12:31 pm, 6lbs 7 oz. 20 in long.
Aug. 4-Abigail Renee Lynd goes home to be with our Savior-Praise God for the time we had with her.
Aug. 7-Abigail's Ceremony at Oak Hill Cemetary North
Sept. 19-20-I road trip with Michelle to Iowa to see Courtney and old friends
Oct. 1-3-My first bow hunting trip with Caleb!
Oct. 19- We attend a new church!!!
Oct. 29-My birthday!
Nov. 2- Our one year anniversary!

As I look back at all that has happened this year, it doesn't really seem like a lot, but it has been. Abigail was a big part of our lives and when she didn't make it, that really hurt us. We were so looking forward to having her be a part of our lives. But God is good and Lord-willing we will have a whole household of children someday!!! I hope you all had a super year too-I have certainly enjoyed following along with some people of facebook or their blogs!

Family...

You know, family can often times be very difficult. Sometimes you just want to look at them and tell them what you are thinking, but you know that you can't. Sometimes you just want to move away. Is the path of least resistance the best? It is not Caleb and I that are having the problems, it is the additional family that has problems with what we do. Because Caleb and I are doing what is best for our family, and more importantly, doing what God wants us to do right now, we are getting shunned for it. I just don't understand it! But it is ok because God is good and He will provide as long as we are doing His will. If you think about it though, pray for Caleb and I as we make some tough decisions in the next week. :) Thanks

It's been busy...

Well, it has been a couple of days since I last posted and those few days have been busy! Caleb had Monday and Tuesday off, so we spent those days doing things we needed to get done. We cleaned off our back porch and cleaned out his truck. Then we had Kyle and Michelle up for dinner and we also stopped by my nephew Gavin's first birthday party! That was cute, but he didn't want any of his cake. He wasn't feeling well though, he went to the doctor earlier that day. Tuesday we ran some errands, and did some other odds and ends things. We went to Caleb's brother's house last night and had dinner with them. They are so much fun.

This is a point of interest. At our house, we only have an antenna, so we had to get one of those converter boxes. Well, before we got the box we had oh, 8-9 channels...now after the box we have oh, 2. Yeah, not cool. Hopefully when the leaves fall we will get more, because there is a big limb right around our antenna. I just thought that was funny, these boxes are supposed to make things better, and instead it makes things worse. :)

Today I spent the day cleaning and baking. I cleaned up the house because we are having a ladies Bible study at my house tomorrow evening. I am very excited about that!!! And then I made a pumpkin pie and some chili for dinner tonight. I figure since it is getting colder, it is time to bring out the chili and stew and soup recipes! I love fall!!!!!

Ok, I am done boring you with the facts of my days!

Now is one of those times...

Now is one of those times when I just want to cry. In fact, I am crying. I just came from my mom's house in which we had a delicious dinner and superb fellowship, and then my cousin and her daughter came. Don't get me wrong, I love her to death, it's just that he daughter is less than a year old and it makes me miss Abby so much. There is such a deep longing for my baby girl. This is such an intense sadness, it is just hard to explain, and there is not much I can compare it to. I just keep thinking that I should have a daughter who would be a little over two months old at this point. I can't explain what I am feeling right now.

Thoughts...

As I sit here in my totally comfortable living room, I think about many different things. A few of those thoughts include:
1) When will Caleb and I attempt to have another baby? I would try tomorrow if I thought it was the right time, but I am just not sure. I believe that it won't be too much longer though. I cannot wait! They say that when you have a baby that your mothering instincts kick in, well I had a baby and I think those instincts are definitely here because I found myself in wal-mart the other day telling a little boy in the toy department to be careful because the toys were about to fall on him and his mother just stared at me. Oh well-maybe I saved him from a headache. And then there is my dog who is basically my child only he has four legs and a lot more fur! Caleb tells me that I baby him to much, I just tell him that we better have a real baby soon then!

2) I am totally excited for the new Bible study I am going to this evening. We are going to study the book of Hebrews. You have no idea how much I need this! I need the fellowship of other people besides Caleb's family. I cannot wait until 8:00 tonight!!!

3) I think about how beautiful it is outside and how much stuff needs to get done. I have the house to tidy, dinner to make and the yard to mow, but Caleb gets off early tonight, so maybe I will let him mow the yard!

4) I think about whether the mystery shop program I just signed up for is really legitimate. If it is, I think it will be a lot of fun. Just basic things, like restaurants and different shops, but it should be exciting! We will see how that turns out.

You know, there are so many other thoughts inside of my head that I don't know how to get out. Part of me says to keep them inside because I don't want to hurt anyone, and part of me says to let them out because I will feel better. They are not bad thoughts-more about Abby and her death and just the feelings that I have that other people can't feel-not even Caleb. I hurt sometimes because I just want her back so bad, but I know that can't happen.

Anyway, I don't mean to depress anyone-these are just some of my random thoughts!

After a busy day yesterday, I am ready to have a relaxing day of hot chocolate, a comfy chair, and a good book, but alas, I doubt that will happen today. Yesterday began with Caleb and I driving to C & M Kennels to look at bloodhound puppies. However as we began our trip, we had to stop for a cow in the road...as I called the police to let them know, Caleb decides to try and get the cow back into the fence. I would have to say that watching Caleb chase a cow down the road was pretty funny. As our journey continues, we got lost looking for the house. We arrived at the kennel nearly 40 minutes late!! It was ok though-no, we didn't buy a puppy, but they were really really cute! After that, we ran some errands in town and then headed up to Lafayette. We took Jeremy and Heather with us and went to the Christian bookstores and out to eat. Last night we had a rousing game of Dutch Blitz and then headed off to bed. Caleb is now out hunting with Kyle and I had time to clean up the house. Now I sit here reflecting on yesterday and thinking about all that has to happen today.

I am also watching tv and they are talking about that little girl Caylee Anthony. I don't understand some things. I don't understand how God allows some unqualified parents to be parents. I think about the kids who are in bad home situations and it just makes me sad for them. I cannot wait until God blesses Caleb and I with a child whom we can raise in a very loving atmosphere.

Until I update again, I wish you all a good day!

Trusting God

It seems that trusting God is easier to do when things are going great, but when trials arise it gets so much harder to trust. I am learning to lean on God and trust that His plan is perfect, even when it hurts. It also seems harder to believe that God has everything under control when in all reality it seems that life is spinning out of control. But God is Faithful and I know that He has complete control...it is just that whole issue of trust.

I got to have a nice visit with Michelle this afternoon while her husband was hunting and mine is working. We talked about everything, and time just seems to fly by and without us knowing it, it's time to go home! But hopefully we will all get to spend some time together this week.

A Productive Day...

After 4 loads of laundry I am officially caught up after our 4 day hunting trip. I just made dinner and now I am just waiting for Caleb to get off of work to come home and eat with me! I also went to the grocery store today and did a couple of other errands. Overall a very productive day-the house is even clean!

I just love fall! The cooler temperatures, the changing colors, the wonderful smells, it is all just wonderful. I love the foods that come along with fall-like pumpkins and apple cider! I love to curl up in my big comfy chair with a blanket and a good book and a cup of hot chocolate. I love getting up in the mornings and really needing my coffee to warm me up! It is just a delightful season!!!

Well, time has gotten away from me, I need to go get dinner on the table!

It's a new day...

Well, I haven't written in a loooooooong while, but I thought it was time to update. We had our baby girl on August 4, however she went to be with Jesus on the same day. Our baby was stillborn-while we were having contractions, she got the umbilical cord wrapped around her feet and died. We will never forget her and she will always be our baby girl.

On the flip-side, Caleb took me bowhunting for the first time this week and I killed my very first deer. The only negative os that when we were following her blood trail, it ended and we couldn't find her at all. Such a bummer! There is always next time! :)

As for me now, I am loking for a part-time job in an office somewhere. I just need a little something to pass the time.
I went to the store today and I got my dog, Bo, a new toy, leash and collar. He chewed through his leash and his collar was faded-it started out orange and when I replaced it, it was yellow-and a new toy, just because he is that special to me!!!

Well, hopefully I will be able to keep up on this more! I will bring more exciting news later!!!