Thankfullness and sadness...

There are so many things I am thankful for in life. I am thankful for my parents and the way they raised me. I am thankful for my friends that I have had my entire (or most of it) life. I am thankful for the safety God has given me in my life. More personally I am thankful for my husband. I am thankful for the love he shows our family. I am thankful for the things that he does for me and the way he leads our family. I am thankful that he is the Spiritual leader in our relationship and that he helps me grow in my relationship with Christ. I am thankful for the love he shows our son. I am thankful for the father that he is and the father that he will continue to be as our kids grow and as we have more, Lord willing. I am thankful for Donovan and the joy that he is in my life. I am thankful for the ways he is pushing Caleb and I to mature and grow, but also to love and nurture. I am especially thankful for my baby girl Abigail. I know that she is no longer with us and that still hurts tremendously, but I am thankful for everything she gave to Caleb and I. Through her Caleb and I became dependant on each other. We grew together so much and we are continuing to grow together every day. We learned to make decisions on our own and to stick by them. We learned to depend on God for our every need and desire. We learned that communication is so important.

Through all of this it brings me to the fact of sadness. Abigail's birthday is in 10 days. I think that is enough said.