Today Donovan had his 2 month check-up. My little man is now 11 pounds and 2 ounces, 23 ounces long. He is in the 50th percentile in both categories. He also got shots today, which he is currently not feeling well from, but I am expecting him to bounce back tomorrow. He did really well at the doctors office though. He has slept most of the day today and I gave him tylenol a few hours ago for the fever that he had. Now he is finishing a bottle and heading off to bed-hopefully he will sleep tonight too even though he slept most of the day.
In other news, I am going to the new "Used Book store" in town tomorrow. It is such a cool place, I totally reccomend it to everyone! It is at 108 S Green Street, beside Caldwell Sew and Vac. They have new and used books, but none of them are priced over $4. Also, you can bring in your books and get store credit. I love it! (Plus they have coffee...I love coffee!)
I am loving the fall weather. I love having the windows in my house open and wearing a sweatshirt in the evening. I mowed the yard today and wondered if it is time to start counting down how many more times I will mow it. I cannot believe that tomorrow is September 1. This year has flown by, but it has been such a good year so far. Caleb and I have grown so much, and I am so thankful for him and his leadership in our family. I am thankful that he sees Donovan and I as his priorities in life and that he enjoys spending time with us.
20 Daniel answered and said:
“ Blessed be the name of God forever and ever,
For wisdom and might are His.
21 And He changes the times and the seasons;
He removes kings and raises up kings;
He gives wisdom to the wise
And knowledge to those who have understanding.
22 He reveals deep and secret things;
He knows what is in the darkness,
And light dwells with Him.
23 “ I thank You and praise You,
O God of my fathers;
You have given me wisdom and might,
And have now made known to me what we asked of You,
For You have made known to us the king’s demand.”(Daniel 2:20-23)
I am thankful for the season changes, but more I am thankful for God who is in such control.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
It is raining out...
I think rain just sets the tone for how the day is going to go. It hasn't been horrible just stressful. Caleb is going to be home late tonight so I am going to try and get my focus back where it needs to be through some much needed Bible reading.
I am so very thankful that we serve a Big God whose moods do not sway as mine do. He is steady and He is my rock. I am thankful that he is the God of miracles and that I do not have to worry about how everything is going to turn out. I just need to realize that it is all going to go according to God's plan, however hard that may be. I am also thankful that God doesn't give up on me when I lose focus or lose faith.
I am so very thankful that we serve a Big God whose moods do not sway as mine do. He is steady and He is my rock. I am thankful that he is the God of miracles and that I do not have to worry about how everything is going to turn out. I just need to realize that it is all going to go according to God's plan, however hard that may be. I am also thankful that God doesn't give up on me when I lose focus or lose faith.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I am sitting here, in the middle of the night, typing one-handed because I am holding my little man in the other. As I struggle to stay awake, I provide him with nourishment. My mind wanders all over the place, I think about how thankful I am for Donovan I think about what he will be when he grows up. I think about what his personality will be. I pray for him. I pray that he will grow to love the Lord as Caleb and I do. I pray that in every child-rearing situation, I run to God before acting. I pray, that I will depend totally on Him for every thing in life that comes our way.
One of the areas in my life that I am struggling with right now is control. I try so hard to maintain control of our lives instead of letting God have the reigns. I cannot say that I am casting all my cares on Him. Please, pray for this area of my life.
In other news:
-Donovan is now 8 weeks old...wow, time does fly.
-Caleb may be switching to nights...pray for this adjustment.
-I was able to clean house today, and it looks so much better.
-Donovan is now waking up only twice in the night! Hooray, we are getting there! He goes to sleep around 9 and sleeps until 2:30ish. Then he goes back down after eating and gets up around 5:45-6:45. Goes back down until 9ish. How thankful I am for the sleep!
Well, I suppose since he is done eating, I should head back to bed. Thank you for listening to me babble.
One of the areas in my life that I am struggling with right now is control. I try so hard to maintain control of our lives instead of letting God have the reigns. I cannot say that I am casting all my cares on Him. Please, pray for this area of my life.
In other news:
-Donovan is now 8 weeks old...wow, time does fly.
-Caleb may be switching to nights...pray for this adjustment.
-I was able to clean house today, and it looks so much better.
-Donovan is now waking up only twice in the night! Hooray, we are getting there! He goes to sleep around 9 and sleeps until 2:30ish. Then he goes back down after eating and gets up around 5:45-6:45. Goes back down until 9ish. How thankful I am for the sleep!
Well, I suppose since he is done eating, I should head back to bed. Thank you for listening to me babble.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I haven't blogged in a while, I know-but I've been a little busy. Today, I accomplished an amazing feat...I cleaned the house. It was driving me nuts. I don't know why, but I just cannot handle having a dirty house. I am thankful for that, it makes everyone a lot less stressed here when the place is clean.
Donovan is now 6 weeks old. I can't believe how big he is getting. Although it is funny because a friend of our family just had their son and he weighs more at birth than Donovan does now. I really can't imagine giving birth to a baby that big. Fortunately my two have been smaller babies.
I absolutely am so looking forward to fall. I can't wait for the fall like weather...where I can open the windows and air the house out without sweating. Where the leaves are turning. Where the perfect thing to do of an evening is to put on a sweatshirt and go for a walk. I am looking forward to that.
Nothing exciting is happening in our lives. Jeremy may be moving out next month if this house he is trying to buy goes through. I can't wait-it will be so nice to have my house back! But, I would let him live here again in a heartbeat if he needed to.
I guess I will wish everyone a good weekend. I think ours will be pretty fun!
Donovan is now 6 weeks old. I can't believe how big he is getting. Although it is funny because a friend of our family just had their son and he weighs more at birth than Donovan does now. I really can't imagine giving birth to a baby that big. Fortunately my two have been smaller babies.
I absolutely am so looking forward to fall. I can't wait for the fall like weather...where I can open the windows and air the house out without sweating. Where the leaves are turning. Where the perfect thing to do of an evening is to put on a sweatshirt and go for a walk. I am looking forward to that.
Nothing exciting is happening in our lives. Jeremy may be moving out next month if this house he is trying to buy goes through. I can't wait-it will be so nice to have my house back! But, I would let him live here again in a heartbeat if he needed to.
I guess I will wish everyone a good weekend. I think ours will be pretty fun!
Monday, August 3, 2009
Venting...only read this if you don't mind my negativity!
Well, today I feel the need to vent a little bit. I get so frustrated when people seem to think only about themselves and how to make things work out for them and make life better for them without thinking how it makes everyone else feel. For instance, when someone thinks only about how to make everything better for them, it makes me upset because depending on the situation, it makes Caleb extremely upset. He goes from sad to mad to just frustrated because he can't make everyone happy. Why can't he make everyone happy? Because the people he is trying to make happy want two different things. Unfortunately, I can't sacrifice what I believe to make people happy and Caleb can't either.
I just get terribly frustrated with people. I suppose I shouldn't get so upset, but sometimes I just can't help it. I would really like to tell people what I think, but I know that would make them upset. I know that in the grand scheme of things, the relationship that I have with people doesn't matter. I know all that matters is serving God and living for Him. I just wish other people would realize that and that even though having those relationships is good, at some point you have to let them go.
Not only does this venting have a reason, it does not have anything to do with the fact that Abby's anniversary is tomorrow. So, with this "reason" on top of the anniversary date, it makes me emotionally upset and frustrated and mad. Yeah, I said it, I am mad. I am mad that this happened, I am mad that they don't think about Caleb and I, I am mad that they don't think that they can talk to me about problems they may have. I am mad that they put all of this on Caleb and because they ONLY talk when he is there he feels like it is all depending on him. They don't talk to anyone else that is affected about it either, so of course, with Caleb's nature the way it is, he feels like he is the one that has to solve the problem. At this point, I just want to move away and never come back.
I just get terribly frustrated with people. I suppose I shouldn't get so upset, but sometimes I just can't help it. I would really like to tell people what I think, but I know that would make them upset. I know that in the grand scheme of things, the relationship that I have with people doesn't matter. I know all that matters is serving God and living for Him. I just wish other people would realize that and that even though having those relationships is good, at some point you have to let them go.
Not only does this venting have a reason, it does not have anything to do with the fact that Abby's anniversary is tomorrow. So, with this "reason" on top of the anniversary date, it makes me emotionally upset and frustrated and mad. Yeah, I said it, I am mad. I am mad that this happened, I am mad that they don't think about Caleb and I, I am mad that they don't think that they can talk to me about problems they may have. I am mad that they put all of this on Caleb and because they ONLY talk when he is there he feels like it is all depending on him. They don't talk to anyone else that is affected about it either, so of course, with Caleb's nature the way it is, he feels like he is the one that has to solve the problem. At this point, I just want to move away and never come back.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Ramblings of thankfulness
I haven't blogged in a while, and I am not sure why. I suppose it is because I don't have anything exciting to say, but it could be because I have been a little bit busy and a lot a bit tired.
Motherhood is great. I love it. I love my son, I love my husband, I love the fact that their are 3 of us in our little family now. I cannot explain to you the joy I have for my son. He is such an incredible little boy and I am so thankful that God has given him to me. As it approaches Abby's first birthday, I am overwhelmed with a mix of feelings. I have a deep sadness that she is not here with Caleb and I, but I have a great joy that she is in Heaven. I am especially thankful for Caleb at this time because, were it not for him, I would be a lot more sad perhaps to the point of depressed. However, though I am sad, I am not "depressed". I still have the love of my life and a brand new son. I still have my faith and I still have my God. There is no reason for me to be depressed because I know without a shadow of a doubt, that I will see Abby in Heaven. I am sure I have said it before, but Caleb and I really grew up because of Abby. We learned that Caleb and I are a family, and that we need to make decisions ourselves. We learned that regardless of what other people think, we are going to do what we think is best, not what other people want us to think or do. We learned that serving God is more important than anything else in this life and we are going to do whatever it takes to serve Him to the best of our ability. I learned that it is ok not to please everyone. I learned that I should be extremely thankful for my family, but I also need to be willing to give them up. After all, God gives and God takes away-blessed be the name of the Lord. I cannot hold on to my family forever. I love my husband and my son more than anyone else in this entire world, but I am willing to follow God no matter what the circumstances. Abby taught me at a young age what it is like to go through an extreme hardship that affects every ounce of your life. She also taught me that only I can truly understand what it was like for me. Though other people may have lost children, how they felt and how I felt are more than likely different. Therefore, I feel a great sense of happiness when I think of the time that I did have with her. I am grateful that I got to feel her kick and roll for 9 months, I am thankful that though she was not with us, Caleb and I got to hold her and spend time with her after she was born. I am sad, but I am extremely happy and ready to celebrate her one year anniversary.
This post may have been confusing, but it has encouraged me greatly just to get these thoughts out on paper. Just to let myself know that I am truly happy and I am truly thankful for everything in my life. This last year has been extremely hard. I have been hurt more than I ever have in my entire life and I don't know if those wounds will ever heal, but I learned that all I need in this life is Caleb and God. I can live without everything else. In fact, I could probably live without Caleb if that was God's will, but I pray that will never happen. Caleb is such a rock for me. When we go through hard and hurtful times, we go through them together. They affect us together, we cry together and pray together. Even though Caleb and I have both been sad, happy, broken and emptied this past year, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I do hope this next year is better for us, I hope we continue to grow, but I hope we are able to put some of the past behind us and move on together serving God and raising our children to love God with all of their being.
Thanks for letting me ramble!
Motherhood is great. I love it. I love my son, I love my husband, I love the fact that their are 3 of us in our little family now. I cannot explain to you the joy I have for my son. He is such an incredible little boy and I am so thankful that God has given him to me. As it approaches Abby's first birthday, I am overwhelmed with a mix of feelings. I have a deep sadness that she is not here with Caleb and I, but I have a great joy that she is in Heaven. I am especially thankful for Caleb at this time because, were it not for him, I would be a lot more sad perhaps to the point of depressed. However, though I am sad, I am not "depressed". I still have the love of my life and a brand new son. I still have my faith and I still have my God. There is no reason for me to be depressed because I know without a shadow of a doubt, that I will see Abby in Heaven. I am sure I have said it before, but Caleb and I really grew up because of Abby. We learned that Caleb and I are a family, and that we need to make decisions ourselves. We learned that regardless of what other people think, we are going to do what we think is best, not what other people want us to think or do. We learned that serving God is more important than anything else in this life and we are going to do whatever it takes to serve Him to the best of our ability. I learned that it is ok not to please everyone. I learned that I should be extremely thankful for my family, but I also need to be willing to give them up. After all, God gives and God takes away-blessed be the name of the Lord. I cannot hold on to my family forever. I love my husband and my son more than anyone else in this entire world, but I am willing to follow God no matter what the circumstances. Abby taught me at a young age what it is like to go through an extreme hardship that affects every ounce of your life. She also taught me that only I can truly understand what it was like for me. Though other people may have lost children, how they felt and how I felt are more than likely different. Therefore, I feel a great sense of happiness when I think of the time that I did have with her. I am grateful that I got to feel her kick and roll for 9 months, I am thankful that though she was not with us, Caleb and I got to hold her and spend time with her after she was born. I am sad, but I am extremely happy and ready to celebrate her one year anniversary.
This post may have been confusing, but it has encouraged me greatly just to get these thoughts out on paper. Just to let myself know that I am truly happy and I am truly thankful for everything in my life. This last year has been extremely hard. I have been hurt more than I ever have in my entire life and I don't know if those wounds will ever heal, but I learned that all I need in this life is Caleb and God. I can live without everything else. In fact, I could probably live without Caleb if that was God's will, but I pray that will never happen. Caleb is such a rock for me. When we go through hard and hurtful times, we go through them together. They affect us together, we cry together and pray together. Even though Caleb and I have both been sad, happy, broken and emptied this past year, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I do hope this next year is better for us, I hope we continue to grow, but I hope we are able to put some of the past behind us and move on together serving God and raising our children to love God with all of their being.
Thanks for letting me ramble!
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